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For Lauren

Pulling the material of her black, strapless dress, Lauren sighs as she takes in her appearance by looking in the mirror hung on the wall in front of her. Nerves bubble in her stomach at the prospect of the nights events; as being a well known TV presenter in the UK, Lauren has been chosen to interview the winners and celebrities at the ‘Brit Awards’ when they come off stage. That does contribute to her nervous feeling, but mainly because she will have to come face to face with her ex boyfriend, boy band member Zayn Malik for the first time in three years. After having a relationship for two years, Zayn decided to end it all, saying he wanted to focus on his career. Lauren was shattered, and then moved to America in bid to stay away from the heart break and to maybe achieve a career in the US. Her determination got her just that, and now at twenty-four years old, she returns to home country to face the music.

When’s the day you start again
And when the hell does you’ll get over it begin
I’m looking hard in the mirror
But I don’t fit my skin
It’s too much to take
It’s too hard to break me
From the cell I’m in

Taking once glance in the mirror, Lauren smiles with satisfaction, proud of her sophisticated outfit choice. Leaving her new London apartment, she locks the door behind her and heads outside to the car waiting for her at the entrance of the building. Through the duration of the journey to London’s O2 arena, Lauren tries to think of what she’ll say to her ex boyfriend; some light conversation to avoid any awkwardness and to rid her mind of the deep feelings she still possessed for the boy. ‘Well he was a boy then’, she thinks to herself, leading her mind to see how different Zayn may have became over the passing years spent away from one another. Will he still be his same shy self? Or has the fame and undying attention sent him to be cocky and arrogant? She just hopes he is the same Zayn she met six years ago. And wonders is he still has a soft spot for her. Lauren highly doubts that; he’s Zayn Malik from One Direction, one of the world’s biggest boy bands for crying out loud,

Oh from this moment on
I’m changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It’s time to get real

“Here we are, Miss”, the driver of the car states, snapping Lauren from her train of thoughts. She gathers her clutch bag and readjusts her dress as the driver steps out of the car and opens the door for her. Screams and flashes of the paparazzi’s camera meet her, taking Lauren by surprise a little as she steps out onto the red carpet. Doing the usual ritual, she smiles, waves and poses for the prying eyes of the paps and news reporters before signing various things for fans which line the carpet. Smiling to her jaw aches, she makes her way over to do some brief interviews for the press. Despite answering the questions thrown at her, Lauren’s mind does not stay focused, and just subconsciously traces back to seeing Zayn. Wondering if he has forgotten her, if he’ll ignore her and internally wincing at the emotional pain she has scarred on her heart.

Cause I still don’t know how to act
Don’t know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone
But I still don’t know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone, you moved on

“Lauren, what’s it like being back in the UK?”, a reporter asks, holding a microphone to Lauren’s mouth. As Lauren opens her mouth to speak, a sudden outburst of loud screams and flashes of light distract her. The girls in the crowd go crazy at having a glimpse of the new celebrity arrivals; shouting the names Harry, Louis, Liam, Niall and Zayn. Lauren swallows the lump which had just formed in her throat, blinking hard before turning around to face the reporter again.

“Um, yeah, it’s been great being back. I really missed it here, it’s amazing to come back and still be recognized. The reception has been unbelievable”, Lauren smiles falsely. 

“I have to ask now that he has arrived; do you still harbor feelings for Mr. Malik?”, the reporter queries, squinting her eyes at Lauren.

“I don’t”, Lauren laughs, “our relationship ended years ago, I’ve been to America. Long gone and moved on, as they say”.

“Well, sparks could fly again, you never know”, the reporter responds. “Thank you for talking, enjoy your evening!”.

“Thank you”, Lauren answers before walking further down the red carpet.

So how’d you pick the pieces up yeah
I’m barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And it’s not me that you’re with

During each interview, Lauren would glance down the carpet, hoping to catch sight of Zayn but she never did properly with all the fuss and people. This time, she wished she never tried, as hooked onto Zayn’s arm, is a tall, thin, blonde girl. Lauren can feel her heart sink from inside her chest, her eyes stinging with tears and has a feeling that all the life in her body has been removed instantly. She finds herself falling into some sort of a trance, remembering the times when it used to be her in his hold. Despite all that, Lauren always knew this day would come eventually, Zayn attracts girls like a moths to a light. But she just never knew it would hurt this much. All Lauren could think was, that any chances they had of being together again, has been shattered, or just held of again. She wanted to be strong whenever she came to see him, but she knows that no matter how strong she thinks she is, that when she sees Zayn’s face, she will instantly fall hard again for him. 

Traipsing backstage, Lauren sighs with relief to finally have gotten away from the prying eyes of the media. Thankfully, she never got ask any more questions on Zayn and her’s previous relationship, something which she was truly grateful for. Still, the sound of his name or even knowing that he is near made her heart beat faster and her pulse race effortlessly. Lauren can’t understand why he still had such an effect over her, it’s been years. She thought she had moved on, but evidently she hasn’t. 

“Hey there stranger!”, Lauren hears, a thick accent but like music to her ears. Smiling, she turns around to face her caller but is engulfed in a hug she missed so much.

“Liam! It’s been a while!”, Lauren says, her voice sounding muffled against the material of Liam’s black blazer.

“Yes! You never got in touch”, he pouts, “I’ve missed you tons”.

“I’ve missed you too; I just needed to get away, clear my head a bit. You know?”.

“Yeah, I understand. But at least you’re here now”.

“I am”, she smiles, “now, what have you five been nominated for this time?”.

“What makes you think we’ve been nominated for something?”.

“Um, Liam. One of the world’s biggest boy bands ever, you’re hardly here for the sake of it”, she responds, quirking an eyebrow at him.

“Mm, yeah suppose”, he laughs, shaking his head in defeat. “Best group, again”.

“Oh of course, well I wish you luck. I have to go now, and get set up for interviewing you once you win”, she winks.

“Thanks, and hopefully you do get interviewing us then. We’ll see you at the after party anyway, okay?”.

“Yeah, see you then”, she says as Liam walks of into a crowd of celebrities and backstage crew.

Oh from this moment on
I’m changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It’s time to get real

“And the winner, of the best group is….One Direction!”. Lauren claps from backstage, smiling proudly at the boys embracing each other in celebratory hugs as they make their way up onto the stage to collect their awards. It never fails to make Lauren feel proud at the boys every time they achieve every goal and dream they have had, or even go up a level in their career. They deserve every ounce of success they get, they worked hard for everything they have and to be in the position they are in today. 

“Well, it’s always nice to have a few of these, isn’t it boys?”, Louis laughs into the microphone. The boys laugh too and nod, all admiring the award as they pass it to one another, and cheering in a masculine manner when Harry holds it above his head; causing the arena to erupt with screams at the simple action. “We just wanna thank anyone and everything who has helped us to get to where we are today, we couldn’t have possibly have done it without your help and support. It’s been incredible, the amount of things we have done which we’d never have dreamed of. And to the fans for being through every step of the journey, all the waiting and patience you have, we can’t thank you enough”.

The boys wave as they make their of the stage, and pass through stage hands to get briefly interviewed before heading back out to watch the rest of the awards show. Lauren nervously runs her fingers through her brown locks, anticipating her and Zayn’s first confrontation since they broke up. She feels slightly at ease though, knowing that this is just professional for now but will still see him at the after party when they don’t have to put on a front. Breathing in heavily has she hears Niall’s Irish tone nearing, she smiles as the camera rolls and the boys walk closer. 

“One Direction! Congratulations boys!”, Lauren greets the boys, hugging each of them in turn but hesitating slightly when she comes to Zayn. The atmosphere turns tense and slightly awkward as the look each other dead in the eyes, sad smiles gracing their lips at the brief contact.

“So, how does it feel to have another Brit in the bag?”, Lauren questions.

“It’s great to have one of these bad boys, but three is just crazy. We can’t thank everyone enough”, Harry smiles, waving the awards from side to side.

“Did you expect to get it at all? Or did you already have a suspicion that you would, since you’ve won close to everything you’ve been nominated for”. The boys laugh and shake their heads, pushing away the comment.

“No no no, there’s tough competition in this industry, it’s full of surprises. No one is ever guaranteed anything, you have to work for it”, Niall says.

Cause I still don’t know how to act
Don’t know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone
But I still don’t know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone, you moved on

“It’s nice, to know that people still support us after the past years. We must be doing something right then”, Zayn laughs.

“You definitely are. So what’s next for you five? Touring anytime soon again or are you taking a break?”, Lauren asks.

“No way are we taking a break yet!”, Niall says. “We’ve been writing some new material for the next album, so hopefully we can get back into the studio soon to get that recorded and then back on the road again for another tour”.

“Sounds good, any previews?”.

“…nope. Top secret stuff, Lauren”, Louis says, sticking his tongue out at her.

“Fine, but don’t keep us waiting too long then”.

“Of course we won’t”, Liam laughs.

“It’s been lovely talking to you boys, enjoy the rest of your night”, Lauren says to close the interview. Standing up, she hugs the boys again before they walk off. That wasn’t as bad as she thought it would be; it was only a brief interview anyway so it wasn’t anything to worry too much about. Now, she feels slightly more at ease for the after party after being in his presence for just a few minutes. 

No I can’t keep thinking that you’re coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you’re at
No
And it’s gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And it’s gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real

Now, at the after party, Lauren sips a glass of red wine allowing the liquid to glide freely down her throat. Her eyes are locked on Zayn with his blonde lady friend, who stand at the far side of the bar in deep conversation. Lauren subconsciously frowns when she notices that Zayn’s hand is placed firmly on the small of the girl’s back in a protective manner. She remembers when that was her. Her head snaps away when Zayn turns his head and sees her standing alone.

“Lauren, you alright?”, Zayn says softly, his hand rubbing up and down Lauren’s bare arm. Nodding quickly, Lauren smiles at Zayn.

“Yeah, just a bit tired, that’s all”.

“Have you had a good night?”.

“Mhm, it’s been great. Especially seeing everyone again; it’s been a while. Good to catch up, I don’t think I’ll be going anytime soon”, Lauren smiles softly, and focuses on people on the far side of the room to stop herself from succumbing under his feather light touch. 

“We’ve all missed you, but I couldn’t be shocked when you went. You had your…reasons, I suppose”.

“Mm, yeah. I think it was the best thing for me to do at the time. Not just for me, but for you too. Some thinking time…”, she trailed off.

“I’m sorry”, Zayn whispers, looking Lauren straight in the eye.

“It’s…it’s fine Zayn; there’s always two sides to a relationship. I understand why you did what you did, our careers are too demanding”.

“I regret letting you go, remember that, okay?”. Lauren just nods feebly in response. “If things were different, I’d like to try things again, but for now, let’s just keep things the way they are, yeah?.

“Okay”, Lauren smiles, feeling her heart flutter. “But what about her?”.

Zayn follows the direct of where Lauren nods, his eyes taking him to the girl he’d taken with him. Shaking his head, he squeezes Lauren’s arm. “No, she’s just here for tonight. Nothing going on at all. I promise”.

I still don’t know how to act
Don’t know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone
But I still don’t know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
But you’re long gone, you moved on

“Well, it’s been nice seeing you Lauren”, Zayn says, pecking her on the cheek.

“Yeah, you too Zayn”.

Lauren reaches her hand up to her cheek where Zayn’s lips had previously been, lingering the tips of her fingers over the skin. Her aqua blue eyes glisten with happiness that there is in fact hope for Zayn and she. Lauren came back, wallowing at the thought of Zayn having moved on from her, and had no feelings for her. But fortunately, it’s exact opposite. She feels content. Almost completely satisfied with her life for the first time in years. It’s a nice feeling, one she missed and will always welcome back.

But you’re long gone, you moved on
Eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you’re long gone, you moved on

Long gone and moved on? No. Neither of them are. It was just a thought both were holding. There’s always that one person you can never fall out of love with. And that happens to be Zayn and Lauren in each other’s case. There’s still a chance.

Unexpected Love:)